My old love, Jean Lambert Tallien:
It has been so long since we last spoke, and I cannot help but bid one last goodbye to the man I once knew all too well. I never expected life to hold such surprises as I have experienced ever since I met you in Bordeaux.
They called me Notre Dame de Thermidor, a saviour to the innocent inmates stuck behind jail bars due to rumours spread about the rich. However, while reminiscing about my actions, I realized that I could not have done all of this if you had not been the one to save me from my own execution. I believe that I owe you a thank you—a thank you for giving me a second chance.
I remember the feeling of the rats gnawing at my ankles, imagining their teeth as the jaws of the guillotine, hungry to dig into human skin. I remember the damp, cool air from within the prison cells wrapping around me like a cloak of death, waiting to suffocate me. You saved my life that day… but you took the lives of so many others. I guess our ideologies were too different for us to be together. Although you rid this earth of Robespierre, the blood on his hands stained yours as well.
I really thought I could change you. I guess that is one of my biggest regrets. I was able to rescue so many people from death’s grasp, but I could not prevent you from taking the lives of so many others. I hope that in the future, you will be able to see how much better life can be through peaceful settlements.
Although our paths may never cross again, I hope that I have left an impact on your life, and that you will realize how many lives have been unnecessarily thrown away during this reign of terror. Life is a gift, and I have done my best to make the most out of the second chance you gave me. I hope you will remember me, and that my legacy will live on long after my name has been forgotten.
I do not want to be remembered for my personal affairs or my flashy outfits. I want to be remembered for triggering the downfall of a tyrant, and planting and nourishing the idea of a peaceful earth without the use of violence to resolve conflicts. I know that your mind set may not be able to be swayed, but I find it fairly therapeutic to confess my feelings and pray that somewhere within you, that seed will flourish and open your eyes to how wonderful this world can be.